Well it is true that only you can decide for yourself, but I’ll do my best to help okay? 🙂

I’m dysphoric and Genderfluid, so I can definitely understand where you’re coming from. Honestly I was even less sure of myself once I had a word for it! It feels like commitment, like you HAVE to transition as soon as you possibly can once you figure out you have dysphoria, or else others may say if you don’t then you never had dysphoria in the first place. So my advice would be to take it slow. This is what I did. I asked “What part of my body do I dislike the most? If I HAD to keep everything else but I could get rid of one thing, what would it be?” Once you take that step, it tends to get easier. 

Change is scary, especially when its your own body! But once you understand how you feel after getting rid of that which you hate the most, then you have a better understanding of how much more comfortable you’d be continuing your transition. This isn’t always the case of course, but taking that first step is always the hardest I think! Everyone’s transition is different, and thankfully medical practitioners are beginning to understand that.

It can definitely be scary, and it may feel like no one will care. But that’s definitely not true. Of course there will always be awful people who will treat you poorly for being trans, but there will also be those who will accept and love you no matter what. And its okay to be closeted, or to go stealth once you’ve transitioned (if possible). I’m out to only to the people closest to me and my therapist. No one is entitled to such personal information about yourself, especially if it puts you in danger. 

Sorry this took so long to answer, by the way. It got shoved to the bottom of the inbox. But I hope this was helpful in some way, and good luck to you. 🙂