First off, thank you for this question. I am thanking you because I feel like honestly a LOT of people in the lgbt/mogai (whatever not straight shorthand you prefer) are in similar circumstances as yourself.
Relationship trauma, especially if it occurs before age 24 can DEFINITELY reshape/mold/change how our brain perceives romance and sex. This is because the brains neurons are considered very “elastic” prior to age 25-30 (how the brain learns things TENDS to slow down between ages 25-30). If the trauma happens during your “birth” of your “big interest” in others (in regards to sex or romance), this can make it even more confusing/troubling!
To answer your question, however, I think a FEW possible terms could work. Use whatever you feel most accurately defines your situation or whatever you feel is most accurate to you! The flag is UNDER the name/description. A good way of “feeling around” orientations is to talk with others who identify as one of these labels to see if you experience similar feelings/thoughts/desires/preferences/experiences/etc.
1. Greysexual: rarely experiencing sexual attraction OR under very specific circumstances, this is within the asexual community/spectrum/umbrella.
2. Pomosexual: feeling like your sexual identity is somewhere “between” all contemporary labels, but you feel like there could be a term more accurate to your feelings/experience in the future as the lgbt/mogai community evolves and gains a greater understanding of how human sexuality operates and considering queer/lgbt theory with how it influences our view of sexual orientation/attraction.
3. Byumasexual: A sexual orientation term for those who experienced some kind of trauma during the “awakening” of their sexual attractoin/orientation (for example: when one first starts to date or gets curious about their own sexual orientation). Due to this trauma, the concept or idea of “sexual attraction” is a very confusing subject to them. These individuals might have a basic idea of their orientation (”I know I am not straight” or “I know I am not gay”) but beyond that, it is a mystery. People who identify as Byumasexual might have a history of “cycling” through different sexual orientation terms, attempting to find a term that they feel comfortable with (the “light bulb moment”).
4. Pomoimpla: The idea behind this identity (pomoimpla) is that at the time, there is currently no specific sexual/romantic/sensual (again, depending on what suffix you apply this identity to) but you feel like sometime in the future, our ideas and philosophies behind what makes up our “identity” will advance to a point where a new term will be found and you will feel comfortable identifying as such.
5. Greyomnisapphic: a type of greysexuality where on the rare occasion that they do exhibit sexual attraction, they consider themselves pan/omni but strongly lean towards sapphic. This is within the asexual community/spectrum/umbrella.
6. Implasexual: Someone who feels they are never quite sure of their sexual orientation due to self doubt or anxiety.
7. Kupioflux/Cupioflux: Desiring and/or liking the idea of a certain type of relationship (sexual/romantic/etc) but the level of attraction/desire for the relationship fluctuating. You do NOT have sexual attraction.
Reblogging because this might help some people out!
This might set off some light bulbs for our followers for those wondering what their orientation could be!
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